Hello!

Sometimes have you asked yourself if you really want to carry on forward during times when you felt so helpless & the reason for doing so?

Up til now since few months ago, I have been working my life off like a dog, although is no hard work when compared to those of a construction worker, but i still exchange my sweat for the few dollars that may seem so insignificant to you,sacrificing my time for study (like real i will study,but at least i could slp at home during these few hours rather than work righte?)

Future lies in my own hand,i chose every single 1 of it & i nvr regret.
But why do i still choose to work?

Firstly for my own survival,i couldnt possibly be eating grass for every meal, even if i do,there will definitely be no more grass in singapore some day due to my big & heavy appetite.

Secondly,all i want is a real goooood acoustic guitar that i wanted to buy for myself for my 19th bday,i was chionging for it,but still money is never enough.

I really love music alot, especially the acoustic sound nowadays.Really the best way to express myself, some thing that i really like doing other than sleeping.IF i really could afford the time, i would definitely attempt at song writing & composing,but what now? i dont even have the fucking time to practice guitar covers,how sad is it.

i cant do things that i like,yet im so called force to do things that i dislike
attending certain tutorials & lectures for the sake of not getting barred for exam,
what fuck sia,you call yourself a successful tutor/lecturer.

I just didnt like this feeling,i felt helpless sometimes.

But what can i do?i couldnt possibly give up this passion of mine,impossible.

Now im coming 19 soon,
1 of my dream is to go for a backpack tour w friends before 20,
& now i have only 1 more year to achieve it,
possible or not,i dont know,really.

There are just some things not meant for you to be completed alone,
everything in this world has its own reason for being there at that very moment,

Tbh,
ive had enough of projects.likka serious

i now see no motivation of doing it,
when i start seeing my efforts on the way to hell,
gg down the drain,what for i continue right?

got lucky w previous 2 tests,
but i just got the bad feeling that my "the day before exam" study trick wont work this time,i dont know why mayb becoz statistics showed,the previous time my 2nd exam all flung like dog.

Alrighte fh wong,youre now in this state,
turn right,jam
turn left,stuck
go forward,crash
"gost-tunn",fall

ohkayy,i need my jack daniel w coke,
goodbye!

**i didnt choose to escape the reality by drinking,if anyone of you are thinking of this.
i just chose to pause the game & be back ready to fuck anything,anyone that block fh wong's way

I chose the life option of :going forward,crash but the right way

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